"A leader, once convinced a particular course of action is the right one, must have the determination to stick with it and be undaunted when the going gets tough."
– Ronald Reagan Source: chrisjennison

Doing Grown-Up Things

Today was a big day for my adult life.

I realized I’m moving into my apartment next week and it would probably be a good idea to get all my utilities figured out and stuff. I called over to National Grid and scheduled the power to get turned on and then once that was all figured out, I bought the cable and internet package and even got a deal along the way. 

Bills. Growing up. Hmmph. 

"In 2011, will you take me to see Spiderman 4?"
– Lauren, talk about planning ahead.

Escalators

Dear Fellow Escalator Users,

By definition, an escalator is a motor driven device used to transport people between floors. It was designed to make movement easier and speed up the process of going up or down stairs. Just because it does the moving for you, does not give you the right to get on and and just STOP. This is especially true on escalators that are smaller and can only fit one person width-wise.

I hope we can resolve our differences and I’ll never be late to class again.

Regards,

John

Anti-Awkward Pill

I wish there was some kind of anti-awkward pill that you could take. I’m such a nice and easy-to-get-along-with kind of person, but when I’m put in new/uncomfortable situations, I literally and socially trip over myself. I worry way too much about what other people are thinking about me and feel like I’m twice my size and three times as clumsy.

It’s awful.

Up All Night

After seeing Transformers 2 last night, I didn’t get home until around 3AM. I wasn’t really all that tired so I just started futzing around with some websites I’m working on and watched some movies.

Once the sun started to come up, the idea of falling back asleep kind of went out the window. Once it’s light out, I become oddly awake so I ended up staying awake and napping for random forty minute periods during the day. I’m actually still very awake without a problem.

The only reason I would’ve slept was because by 8AM, I was SO bored. There’s nothing to do when your house is quiet, no one else is awake, tumblr is dead and there’s absolutely nothing worth watching on television.

FML.

FML.

Yeah, but what if?

I’m so tired of always thinking about everything. Anytime I want to do something, I figure out all the angles and have my story so solid that no one can touch it. All this drama with this loan has become such a nightmare.

I was approved, but my co-signer wasn’t for some reason and now the ONLY single step that’s in the way of it being approved is having someone else literally click “I am a co-signer” and they get approved instantly.

I don’t have all the answers. I don’t know what the weather will be like tomorrow or when I’ll get jobs or how much I’ll make or how many hours I’ll be working or how long I’ll have them or what other expenses might come my way. But to not figure this out and get the loan approved after I’ve come 8,000 steps in the right direction would be giving up and a sin.

I hope this works out. I really, really do.

Frustrating Day

I hate to be a debbie-tumblr-downer, if you will, but today has not been the finest days of my life. I woke up and went to a meeting about a decision I’m reluctant to talk about until the drama and issues surrounding it are resolved. Nonetheless, I’ll say it costs money. I applied for a loan with a very well known loan lender and am waiting to hear back about it. For some reason, my mom filled out the “co-signer” part incorrectly and they rejected her so now the entire fate of my loan rests in my own hands - and those hands have no established credit, assets, stocks, consistent pay, etc.

I’m hoping it works out, because at this point - it would suck if it didnt.

In other related news, liking this topic would not be considered cold. I’d do anything for a tumblarity boost at this point. For the sake of this, I’ll consider “Like” as if you said “Aww shucks John, it’ll get better.” or something like that.

OCD

  • Mom: It bothers me that the college sticker on the back of that guy's truck...
  • Me & Mom: isn't centered!!!
  • Mom: I apologize.
  • Me: For what?
  • Mom: For making you a neurotic mess.

Empty Calendar

I miss being away at school. I didn’t think I’d miss it as much as I do - it was never about the freedom or anything like that, it was being the master of my own schedule and having that schedule be packed with things I both want to do or have to do.

You can clearly see when I got home, just by looking at my calendar. It went from filled days, color coded with a variety of activities from working at SUA to rehearsals, meetings, classes and clubs to now where everyday is white and blank with the occasional “haircut” or “doctor’s appointment”. It’s kind of lame.

I’m applying to work for Manorville Ambulance this week - as soon as I figure out where to go to do that and next month I start my EMT course. I know it seems like I’m doing a lot of medical stuff, but it’s not that I’m having a life-changing moment where I want to switch careers, it’s just a really great hobby that I’m doing very well with and pays more than what I could get to work a theatre internship this summer.

I’m also running a dance centre show again - this should be interesting.